Random Thoughts

FORM class was very boring today. the prof was explaining some very difficult topic, and there were only a few students who were trying to understand that. others had already given up. i hadn't slept the previous night and was trying my best to avoid sleep. but just when i was about to go into deep slumber, suddenly a boy in a corner of the class raised a doubt in his loud and clear voice.

what i noticed was not his arcane doubt and the prof's equally arcane answer, but the girl sitting with him. the whole institute knows that they like each other very much, and are pretty committed to the relationship. they both had a serene smile on their face. the smile that a boy has when he knows he has found a hidden treasure buried deep in the ground. all during the class the couple didn't speak a single word to each other, but it seemed to me as if they had never stopped talking. the mere fact that they were together had made any utterance of words superfluous. later on when the class was over and they walked out together, they had a confident grace in their body. like they both knew they had everything they had ever wanted and no force in the world could ever take it back from them.

I don't know why, but i had a very strange feeling at that time. it was what a small boy feels when he sees that his favourite toy has been put in a glass showcase in his home. it was what a little girl feels when she rushes out to her home after the first day of school to tell her mommy some new secrets that she has discovered, but finds after reaching there that mommy has left for shopping. it was what a young man feels on his birthday when he gets all kinds of wishes, but not a motherly scold for why he didn't take lunch that day. and it was what a man feels when all he wants in this world is to touch his beloved, to feel her, and the only thing he gets is the distant echo of her voice which is reaching him after travelling for 1000 miles and is constantly breaking down.

I felt sad, and alone.