Random Thoughts

i can't believe i can make such a great mistake. when i was coming to germany, i had taken care that each of U2 songs were there on my laptop. i had even copied all the rare live versions of songs on the lapi (believe me, U2 is better when it plays live. it was judged the best rock band in live performance recently).

but i can't do anything without making a mistake. just now I found out that I hadn't copied my most favourite song of all time - "Red Hill Mining Time". this is the song i listen to when i am happy. this is the song i listen to when i am sad. this is what i listen when i am drunk. when i am sober. when i am sleeping. when i am awake.

this is what i listen when i want to live. this is what makes dying seem lovely.

for the past 6 years, this song has brought solace to me whenever i wanted to. it was always around when i needed it. but today, unfortunately, it is gone. for those of you who don't know what is the difference between "A beautiful day" and "Sunday bloody sunda", it may seem to be a trivial thing. but for me, it is a matter of life and death. a perfect occation to get drunk, which i am right now.